Fabled Angst Machine

Today wasn't a good schoolday but it was a Good Day (if you know what I mean).

School hours was spent lulling around in the canteen and concourse, going for lit lessons and waiting forever for econs tutorial, which was once again delayed. And it didn't help that the econs tutor enjoys stressing us out and (maybe even) putting us down in order to stress us more. No other tutor who teaches us does this, Mr. Harris tells us "you guys really shouldn't be fretting over a C grade right now" and Mr. Sayers is always like "you're gonna get an A grade for history!" And the fact is I realise I don't work well at all when people try to use reverse psychology and forcefeeds me. It'll only make me feel repulsive and stupid. The motivation and focus has got to come from myself, willingly. I'm just thankful that most of the tutors we've got are witty, engaging and encouraging, that's all.

So the fun today really began when school ended because Ants, Hwee, Vera and I decided to go to ThaiPan for lunch before meeting MC back at school for the interhouse taboo games and once again, I'm really thankful for them because I wouldn't enjoy school as much without them! And even though A13 only got to semis for taboo it was fun while it lasted and also super entertaining as well, right? ;D

It's sad that so many people in other colleges (and some here) are hating jc life and cannot wait to finish this year and to a small extent, I feel the same in that I want to get A's over and done with but really, I'm fine the way I am now. It takes courage to choose to take arts instead of taking the easy way and choosing science (PCME, anyone?) just because it is easier to score straight As and then get into their desired but completely unrelated faculty in uni like Law or Business or Arts & Social Sciences while depleting our chances of getting into the only faculties that we can enter. It irks me so much when people say "oh why are you in arts? there is no future" or "I'm not taking arts because it is all memorizing and the subjects are not relevant at all". It is ignorant, stupid and above all, untrue! I think the girls and I all agree that even though grades are important, it is as important to have fun with school and life in general even while we work and that is one reason why we click. I find that I do not dread lit or history or even h1 math lessons in vj because I actually find them enjoyable and intriguing most of the time and I'm pretty sure most science students can't say the same. I don't think it is necessary to tear your hair out at this time of your life, even if it is over a major examination. I would very much rather leave my jc life at the end of this year with good memories and friends rather than a straight As certificate and a stressed out, blank period of two years.

As I told a friend a little while ago, I don't think life should suck so much.